pre Birthday weekend

TGIF! Dad came home the day before, so thats good, life is back to normal. Normal does not = good. But but but Its my birthday in 4 days..so I am keeping my fingers crossed, it'll be a turn to a better year.

On Friday, the 6th of FEb we are planning to host a little do the occassion is a announcing the launch of our site. My boy friend ST( remember it, I feel weird writing my boyfriend all the time), another friend and I have been working for about 6 months now ( Me not full time, its STs baby actually, I am doing alll that I can to help ) and the site is finally going to be up and running. I dont want to go into details just yet, give me a week and Il put up an EXCLUSIVE post on the site. Its a smash hit, i tell ya.

So besides work, (I work in a destination marketing company full time, thats my job the website venture is the SIDE element ya?) thats gettinga little too much to handle. I am already party planning. The party will be on the terrace of a really nice apartments, right next to the beach..good music, booze, food and a lot of chit chat. We want to have a projector, projecting the " take a tour" caricature bar of the site, so people know. We are expecting about 80 - 90 pax. A lot of things pending:

1. Music equipment hire 2. Projector 3. Catering 4. Invite and Inviting 5. Name Cards 6. Liquer List 7. seating, lighting and set up

Im hosting a do after sooooo long, Iv lost alllllllll my party organisation skills! Yesterday, while discussing details I got super excited and defensive and I ended up fighting with ST and it became a huge draining fight that lasted till 1 am! Thats when I started having doubts if its a good thing that Im a part of this or not, cause instead of help and support, we are breaking each others spirit when we are all stressed out. I am scared it will end up affecting my relationship in the bargain.

You know, you can condition yourself to an extent but ultimately you cant fake, your true you is bound to come out! You know I am "AAAAAAAAAAA" wacko person, so no matter how much I condition myself to be a " Hmm" "Ah" person, ultimately the wacko "AAAAAAAAAA" takes over! Shit, I am so drained emotionally.

So anyway, Il just trudge along and close on a lot of things this weekend. Rest well, watch a movie maybe, birthday grooming is a HIGH necessity! My feet look so ugly, I think i heard them chant " pedicure, pedicure, we need a pedicure last night while I was asleep" and shop maybe splurge, I dont care cause its Birthday week the whole citys on sale anyway!